Guilt.

I work because I have to not because I want to. Do I feel guilty sometimes that I have to work and can't be with my boys more? Of course I do.  I want to be with my boys! But life doesn't always work the way you want it to. I am tired of hearing the whole debate of being a working mom or a stay at home mom. I wish I could be a stay at home mom like my mom she was always there for us, she still is. I wish I could be there for them at every moment of there lives to not miss some of there firsts. I missed quiet a few of Aiden's because of his first few weeks in the hospital. I mean it was a week before I even got to see his eyes!