Burnt

Sorry I haven't posted been way to tired now but thought I'd try to type something up. Work has been... crazy. I've put in so many hours that yes I'm tired and frustrated. Need to get things done around my house but to tired to deal with it when I am home. Not that I'm home often. Last weekend I worked Saturday and Sunday! So since Sunday I've worked 50 hours and I have to go in tomorrow :/. Been irritable, exhausted... and just want to spend time with my little boy!

That's an old picture but felt like posting one. My doctor appointments have been so much fun right now! Keep seeing different Doctors who give me different answers or who apparently don't even take the time to check my chart before coming in and ask me how far a long I ma. Yeah its a joy. Well found out I'm positive for umm strep B.. type of bacteria that when giving birth need to be given antibiotics so baby doesn't get it. One more thing to add to my list becasue the person I was talking to was like.. if you have to go up to the U before your scheduled induction you'll have to tell them that you tested positive.  Not that a date or anything has been set up. Person on the phone asked if its been setup and aid to get that done at my next app. No idea who I talk to to get that done! I'll just ask around until something gets taken care of. Only good news my insurance has been approved as in-network. So there's that I guess.  They also mentioned I should start doing kick counts.. which I'd love to but I don't have the time. I don't have time to lay on my side for an hour and count kicks. If I'm on my side I'm sleeping! And suppose to be when he most active, guess where I am when his is? That's right work :/.

A day at Primary Children’s Medical Center

I feel him kick, I feel him move and my thoughts go back to where I was standing a few days ago. He feels so normal but I know he is different, special. You could say. Another echo done and the same prognosis spoken, though this cardiologist was more upbeat, he said he believed it was Coa but not nearly as bad as other cases he has seen. Hubby felt better because the first echo he saw nothing wrong no narrowing, but this time he saw it. It wasn’t much but it was there.  The Doc seemed hopeful that maybe it wasn’t as bad as we all thought, that there was a chance, one I’ll be honest I did not want to hear that he may not need surgery. I’m assuming that he does I don’t want to grasp on to possible false hope because I need to be strong for my baby I need to be prepared for him to need heart surgery.  I will try to ignore is goodbye “I hope I don’t see you again!” Me to buddy me to.

Saw New Doctor.

Ok went to my new Doc, well a Doc there not sure who I'll be seeing next week they asked if I cared which one I told them who was ever available. They had me do another ultrasound they wanted to make sure that the did not see other abnomrailities. Appaerntly its common to have otehr problems with a heart defect. Well other then his ine heart defect they saw nothing else wrong. I will be going in for another echo on Friday. What I did learn from teh US is that he's about 5 pounds, has lots of hair and is already in the perfect postion for birth. What a relief! I'm hoping that part goes well so i can have a vaginal birth and not get stuck in the hospital for to long after he gets here. I don't won't to be stuck in my hopsital room the day he has his surgery.

I will be seeing the high risk Doctor once a week now and taking a stress test (they check his heart) once a wekk as well. I would have posted this earlier but I ended up sleeping the last 2 hours. Work is getting to me right now. its crazy. I've done a bit of over time and 14 hours.... worked the last 3 Saturdays, looks like this coming Saturday is going to be me working as well. Can't keep this up I'm almost 35 weeks pregnant! Tired emotional and with a  three year old in the mix its hard.

Only other news I received is they want to induce sometime at 39 weeks. Which little nervous about not that the fact that its 4 weeks away, but because I was a little over a week early with Connor. I better not go into labor before he my induction date... whenever that is! Ok well going to go get my son to sleep so I can go back to sleep still feeling a little dizzy from the long day!

CHD awareness week

Its strange just a month ago I wouldn't have thought about congenital heart defects, but all that changed very quickly. this week is CHD awareness week I wanted to post some of the statistics of CHD. I was rather amazed at how many babies have this, its so much more wide spread then I would have ever imagine. The following facts were taken from The Chirlden's Heart Foundation .

• Congenital heart defects are America’s and every country’s #1 birth defect. Nearly one of every 100 babies is born with a CHD.
• Congenital heart defects are the #1 cause of birth defect related deaths.
• Congenital heart defects are the leading cause of all infant deaths in the United States.
• Each year approximately 40,000 babies are born in the United States with a congenital heart defect. Thousands of them will not reach their first birthday and thousands more die before they reach adulthood.
• Each year over 1,000,000 babies are born worldwide with a congenital heart defect. 100,000 of them will not live to see their first birthday and thousands more die before they reach adulthood.
• More than 50% of all children born with congenital heart defect will require at least one invasive surgery in their lifetime.
• There are more than 40 different types of congenital heart defects. Little is known about the cause of most of them. There is no known prevention or cure for any of them.
• In the United States, twice as many children die from congenital heart defects each year than from all forms of childhood cancer combined, yet funding for pediatric cancer research is five times higher than funding for CHD.
• Congenital heart defects are common and deadly, yet CHD research is grossly under-funded relative to the prevalence of the disease.
• Only one penny of every dollar donated to the American Heart Association goes towards congenital heart defect research.
• Of every dollar the government spends on medical funding only a fraction of a penny is directed toward congenital heart defect research.
• The NHLBI has stated that Congenital Heart Defects are a serious and under-appreciated global health problem.
• In the last decade death rates for congenital heart defects have declined by almost 30% due to advances made through research.

Starting Over?

So much has happened since  learning about Little A's heart defect and things just keep on coming! I got a call from my OBGYN today and I have new appointment with a new Doctor. So goodbye to Dr. Thackeray and hi to Dr. Richards. And ouch! the echogram is going to cost us about 480 dollars and I have another one in a few weeks :/. Not sure how were going to this have another expense on top of it all have to replace out garage door opener its completely broken :/. Only good thing is it'll all come off of our deductible and it'll be almost gone before little A gets here.

Heh my mom just called and told me that they are getting us a garage door opener for Valentines day/ Easter. That will help us a lot!  Trying not to stress about money, but its hard not to. I need to do our tax return I'm going to need it soon :/.

I'm aslo not trying to be upset at the fact that my original appointment was the 10th and now won't see a doctor until the 15th. Long wait when I'm this far along.