Monday, October 1, 2012
Confessions of a shy girl.
My shyness can get really bad, I have stage fright some to the point that I can totally freeze up and be unable to talk or move,heart racing scared to death. The larger the group the less likely I will say a damn thing. I'm a wallflower. Let me be in my little corner and I'm content. Talk to me one on one that works to.
Sad to say I had gone to the walk a few weeks ago in hopes of meeting other heart mom's I talked to one briefly. there were a lot of people there quiet a few around me and I couldn't handle it I in a sense ran away, by going to check on Connor.
I'm on guard around others. Saturday though I wasn't on full guard. I went with hubby to a walk with his costuming buddies and I actually talked to a few of them! I even got very close to telling one of because he was being a damn idiot.. I didn't but I was so close. Wish I had though would have like to see the look on every ones faces!baby steps I guess. I have had to come out of my shell a little. Dealing with so may different nurses and Doctors with everything Aiden has gone through I can't not talk to them! I do not know if I will ever get better with this. I feel it is a part of who I am sometimes I'm just a watcher not a doer.